But it makes sense -- what was the point of getting tied up with worldly responsibilities, like taking care of a spouse, children and a household, when the end of the world was near? Paul, a celibate Christian leader who wrote most of the New Testament, thought of practicing celibacy as taking the higher road towards God, since it allows Christians to concentrate wholly on things of the spirit.
Augustine was one of a long line of theologians to promote the idea of sexual desire as a sin.
No one told me that marriage wasn't always defined and controlled by the church.
I once used to do my share of online sleuthing, to be sure, but in almost every case the research was my response to a gap of some kind.
Throughout all that time, there was exactly one way for Christians to express their sexuality -- by staying abstinent until they got married to a person of the opposite gender. But what I wasn't taught in Sunday School is that the Bible's teachings on sex have been interpreted in many different ways.
I didn't know that the early Christians actually started practicing celibacy because they were convinced the end of the world was near.
Either we lacked common friends who could serve as a character reference, or our connection was too haphazard or casual to grant me what I really wanted.
You see, for much of adulthood, I formed aspirational crushes.